i don't need another hero

i wrote this piece because i had a "friend" who always wanted to save me. i didn't need saving. but i remembered it because greg read job 2:11-13 in the english club meeting. to summarize, job was being tested and his friends came to see him. observing his plight from afar they tore their clothes and cried in lamentation. once they were upon him, they said nothing for seven days, they just sat there with him. they felt his grief was too great for words. greg also said something about how sometimes you don't need help or advice or anything like that, you just need your friends to be there for you... this poem is old but it resonates. enjoy it and shit.


i don't need another hero (job 2:11-13 kjv)
sometimes all i need is an " i understand nikki"
without the but
without the advice that looms just beyond the acknowledgement of understanding
if you understood then you'd know that i don't want advice
i don't want you to save the day
i just want you to be okay with me not knowing what to do next
with the hopelessness and the confusion
the anger and the sadness
i know that oftentimes i do the same thing
i rush to aid you with metaphors for life
and anecdotes
and buddhist rhetoric
but it's only because i'm motivated as you are
by an inner longing for you to never hurt
never cry
never be lost or confused or lonely
even though i know
we must all be at some time
it's a silly cycle of good intentions
i stand here, a townsville with powderpuff girls
i know what to do when shit hits the fan
i do
at least i think i do
and even if i don't let me stumble a bit
it's all a part of the process
i just
for once
want to tell you all the gory details
and know that you want to hear them
and you're not just trying to advise me to
shut me up
i'd rather listen to an hour's worth of your details
than dispense an hour's worth of "i thinks, you shoulds" or the like
i don't need another hero
smallville don't need wonderwoman
wherever the hulk was don't need spiderman
i have friends.
i need friends
not capn save a hoe and crew.
stop trying to save me and start listening to me
really listening.
like i listen to you.