the value in the valley

is what i'm reading. if you didn't already know. and, i guess it's almost like the book the dalai lama wrote about the way to a meaningful life. well, it mirrors it to the point where i just sit there and think: uhm, i already knew this stuff. but if i truly knew it, i'd be doing it.... when you know better you do better.

basically, i'm not in the market for reinvention because i did not invent myself and for all practical and technical purposes, i did not create myself. i'm just working on the stuff i messed up. well, iyanly would say i'm paying attention to the stuff i've been ignoring. like how talented and wonderful i am. really. you know i have the capacity to be bombastic and overly braggadocious (if such a thing exists) but i have to come in line with the Creator's plan for me, and i can't rightly do that if i'm too concerned with the foolishness i've created and deemed my "life" because it simply is not so. and so gregory, yes, life takes us through some stankin, runny, lumpy shit but we have the capacity to be cleansed by our own design. we have to take into account that all this shit we're dealing with is little people shit. little people with little (if any) dreams and no idea of their connection to the divine. we realize it, ache for it and are taking steps to reach it. i hope i'm making sense.

i have to go now. i went to GNC to get some supplements and my stomach is riverdancing on my lungs right now. translation: i need to go pop these pills and i have to eat before i can so i'll holla. longer, more enlightened things will come. until then, i leave you with the words an old pimp told me in front of dollar general in montezuma : take care of yourself, there's only one you.