take a stand...on your knees

hey wussup underground world. i was just sending my prayers out to nik and her friend jessica. i know how hard it is battling cancer and what it can do to you. those who know me well know that my step dad died of cancer earlier this year and please believe that shit is nothing to play with. i watched him fade away like it was nothing, and i've never had my heart broken in such a way. it's like i lost part of me, like i was robbed because someone i looked up to didn't get to see me accomplish my goals or even get my degree.

i pray that her dad gets well, and i'm not gonna say it'll be alright because in actuality i really don't know. life's like that. full of surprises- good ones and bad ones. but the way i see it, all things happen for a reason. it's up to us to find out what that reason is. take a stand on your knees and tell god what you would like from him. he'll listen- trust me on that one!

and i'm not here to wipe anybody's tears away because that's not what we need all the time. rather, i'm offering you a shoulder to cry on, somewhere to vent, and open ear that will listen willingly, offering you my friendship in your time of need.

god bless

peace in the air

pray for my friend jessica's dad... my 9th grade physical science teacher...the man who claims me as his child for what i don't know when my own gramma won't claim me and i stay with the bitch... i digress...
battling cancer like i said. fighting for his life. how can you fight for something that's already been predetermined. but he's fighting cause he loves his family.

i've been thinking alot about family and shit this christmas.
last year my nana died from old aged ness.
this year "doc" is sick.
he might not make it
what do doctors know
makes me think of the song 'roses'... that kanye west joint
#9 if you ain got the bootleg.
makes me think of my family.
and how disconnected we are
and how my friends are more of a family to me than my own
had a get together christmas eve
it was cool but then again it wasn't
i'm bout to graduate and niggas still askin me what my major is
and where i go to school at
and where my brother go to school at
and shit like that

but jessica's my best friend
and i know that because
i didn't know what a real friend was
until i met her
and now i know that i know
that i know
cause of what she shows me
like how she called me crying to say
"they say he might not make it nikki"
and what am i supposed to do
i wanna be in macon with her but i'm sitting here
telling you
all about it.
i'll go tomorrow
but i'm thinking tomorrow might not be there
but i don't wanna think it too hard cause you know how that goes...
putting things in the air and such
so i'm saying unto you cause i want it to be so
pray and put peace in the air for dr. eugene abrams
because we need him
here

my birthday is next tuesday
i'll be 24
i hope he's here to see it.

a holiday moment

it's christmas and i've it's been a good day. i didn't really do anything: didn't really go see any family members because some of them are fake and only come around to get gifts (which i didn't have any money to buy them one), didn't really go anywhere, and didn't have any plans. and you know what- it's been one of the best days i've had in a long time. chilled with the roommate and my girlfriend, watched some tv, talked about how the president has fucked our economy up, read a few chapters in a book, and just took a good sip of this fresh air around me. Merry Christmas ya'll. and that's from the heart.
~1~
real recognizes real- remember that!

i'll take one more

for the road..
i'm on that crown and sprite tonight
cause i got "released from my job"
i ain' the one to tell you that i'm sorry i'm smarter than you
my manager doesn't like me so now i'm on hiatus
"we don't have enough hours to keep you on"
mad cause i make more tips than you do
makin hundreds while you makin chump change
fuck you

i refuse to sit here and apologize for my intelligence
"i don't like your attitude"
i don't like the fact that you're white
but so be it

my best friend's dad is battling cancer right now
you think i give a fuck about a damn bowling alley
we talking about lives of black people
not little shitty white ones
mad cause i attend
a historically black college/university
making them grades
doin the damn thing
got letters on my poetry journals
"i had to let you go because you had the most rejection to me"
what the fuck does that mean?
i'm an english major
i study words
i study phrases
i explicate meaning
that shit u just said is wrong on 1000 levels
but it's cool
cause i got a fifth and some sprite
and i'll be alright
i'm a hustler
ask about me

let me see you 1,2 step!

well you guys i did get 4A's, 1 B, and 1 C. it's cool. i'm just glad that the semester is over. the holidays are here, and now it's time to party! time to get on that kryptonite (nicole) lol!

enjoy your holidays my people. be safe though cuz i can't wait to see all of you underground peeps in january!

god bless

eat shit, roll over and die

bitches. 2a's, 2b's, and 2c's, am i disappointed? a fuck no because i did a bang up job. i actually came to class anddid my work. suck off. my gramma's a hater(hater nigga marry hater bitches and have hater kids...). gon ask me what i made this semester and then not even acknowledge what i did... what and ever.
i made a mixed cd the other day that's the fire.
still concerned about this eight hour rule shit.
might keep me out of bowling green so i may need to find another school...
what and ever.

525, 600 minutes eh ameer? you should hear the duet with stevie... hotness.. gives me chills.

greg i got your email ya damn fool... i think i was in class that day, i guess it is true, you never how what you say can affect or effect someone (can you tell i've taken mrs. walker's classes?)

one time for overtime. working and shit... they don't like my attitude. i think they just hatin cause i make more money tip wise than the other bartenders.

hey the word for 2005 is still foolishness.... 2006 will need a even more apt word. if such an animal exists.

i'm ridin' big yo!

somebody else got their car stolen while they were in the house letting it warm up. watch your got damn car people! if you don't want to sit in it while it's warming up, at least watch from the window or something cuz there are plenty of MF's out there walking and they are looking for a ride! don't say i didn't tell you so! be easy- be safe!

one luv

i'm always in the news

greetings everyone. i was in the newspaper again, and i found an article that really caught my attention. i'm always complaining about things that need to be changed, but i fail to give recognition where it is due sometimes so here we go... it appears that black males (yes i'm talking about my fellas again) are at the bottom of the graduation list. let's face it- a lot of us enroll in college but not that many of us are getting our degrees- what's up with that? ok, the university system of georgia did a little research and they have awarded grants to different colleges and universities to start programs to help boost the black male graduation rate. come on fellas- lets put down the jeezy cd's and pick up a couple of books or study or we can listen to it while we study, but the bottom line is- we need to step our game up! let's get it! (no pun intended) lol.

read the story here:
FVSU awarded grant

producers go to court

Greeting to my revolutionaries. I found this article while browsing through yahoo news. Click the link below to go to the story.

Hip-Hop Producers Acquitted of Charges

Peace and Love
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